Sarah

11:08 pm: Castro was helsa fun. Great costumes. It was honestly good, clean fun. Like I realize people were drunk, but no crazy shit went down. No stabbings this year thank god. It was cool to see a bunch of my friends that I havent seen in a while, which was partially why I really wanted to go. Lorena and Ilana, my lesbian lovers, were very fun to hang out with. Ms. GoldDigger got a pinch in the ass... but we beat the guy up. Haha. Yea right. Anyways. Happy Halloween.

P.S. I watched the great pumpkin charlie brown thing with andy... it was hella sad. Why would that be shown on halloween? All it proves is that kids shouldnt believe in fun great pumpkins that are kinda like Santa Clause. Okay, It was very fun to watch though, reminded me of my "earlier years"

Love, Sarah

07:16 pm: Now I cant move my neck... not cool!!!!!

09:59 pm: Accident
I got in a car accident today. Plain and simple. It wasnt my fault. I was stopped at a red light prepared to go straight through the intersection near the mall. The light turned green so I went straight, not even thinking about the other cars around me. The next thing I saw was red in front of me. It was like one of those allstate commercials... when it is regular speed and then all of a sudden it was slow motion. I had no idea what was going on. It wasnt until a minute after I had been screaming my head off till I realized what had happened. I got out of the car and then girl right away tried to blame it on me. She tried to turn left before I could make it or something... yea right. I freaked out cause I couldnt find my phone to call my mommy. I used her phone to call my mom and she came to the rescue. I did everything that I was suppose to do, except look for witnesses. Within like 5 minutes every single type of police/firetruck/emergency car was there to help us. My car landing on the muni tracks so I blocked that up. Anyways I was crying and shit and got examined from the nurse lady. I said I was okay and didnt want to go to the hospital. Which was a mistake because throughout the day I kept on getting more sore. The doctor told me that if it got worse to come back. She says that it would feel worse in a couple of hours, guess what... it does. Feel like shit. God. I want to die. Anyways... insurance should work out. Her insurance company, state farm, told my mom that as long as there was no left turn light in the intersection, it was her fault. Which is good. But they need to pay for everything. I need a car, my life has been scheduled around a car. I will deal, thank god I am alright.

Okay I am going to go take a shower. Maybe I will feel better, doubtfully. Peace.

08:39 pm: I am uber bored at home. I am even studying for midterms... and they arent for another week and a half. poop. arg!!! save me from hell!

05:50 pm: So first off, I didnt get the part. She single cast Mama and Louise (with understudies) and double cast the smaller roles. I dont understand why she does that, but whatever. I am Mazeppa, the stripper. Hopefully I will be able to actually learn how and play the trumpet on stage. That would be hella exciting. Oh well. So basically I will be in a total of 10 minutes of Gypsy. Oh well, I was bitter but now I am over it.

I was talking to my voice teachers and my family and I realized that I really have nothing to learn anymore at Company. It is time to basically move on. I am going to start moving onto "bigger and better" things. I need to practice with auditions and get my name heard. I will still do the summer show, but probably not the spring show. I dont wanna sit around and wait for a lead, when I can go to a semi-professional company and get more of a challenge. It would be better to be the weakest in a show so I can learn from the best and challenge myself.

Right now I am in Seattle because my bro bro just got his "White Coat" for Dentistry. The ceremony was hella tight. I took pictures and will post them when I get home. I miss everyone and am freaked out cause I am missing school on Monday. I have 3 tests on Tuesday and will be "reviewing" for them on Monday, which means that I will miss everything. I need to keep my grades up. I hate the whole idea of grades, it should be about learning, not about the grade. The pressure is already loading up and I am only a first semester junior. People are already asking me what colleges I want to go to. Ah. Someone save me. I know I want to apply to UCSD, UCLA, Cal, Univ of Wash, Univ of Michigan, and probably NYU (for the hell of it). Those are all really good schools (probably my reach school, well some of them) and I need schools that I like and that I can depend on.

Arg. Okay that was my last thought of college for a while. Okay. Peace out.

Sarah

06:52 am: Slightly freaking out now. Okay. My mom has basically told me I wont get the part, not to be mean at all. I know that makes her sound mean but she is just really preparing me for the truth. I make such a huge deal about everything when I shouldnt. Maybe I just shouldnt try as hard next time, not learn the material so I dont get my heart and soul into the part I want. I could try Lauren Shaw's approach, learn the shit at callbacks having never heard it before. Oh well... last post ever about casting. I will be upset, but I am so over it. Okay.

06:38 am: Oh God! Now wait until Wednesday? I thought the whole point of having a hotline was so that you didnt have to find out your part at company or not. Its just not fair. Cause if someone doesnt get the part they wanted, they will cry or hold it back (which isnt healthy), and if someone does get the part they want, they will shout for joy (so to speak) and make the other people feel bad. And then there is the whole thing about not showing your emotions to make sure no one is affended, but that can lead to people thinking that you dont even care about the part. Anyways. I really wanna know about this point system she is talking to. And which parts are "close?"

If you have no idea what the hell i am talking about, call 541-5008

Ok, Good luck to all at a wonderful day back at school!!!!

11:00 am: I have not posted in a while because no one usually responds to my posts, but i dont really care. This whole Gypsy thing has been really hard on me. This whole time during audtions and beforehand I have thought that I am going to break down if I dont get Mama Rose. But after callbacks, I seem to have just given up. We were all really good, who tried out for mama. But Natalie and Katrina are called back for shit parts and then mama, thats it. I am also called back for a stripper. So I am afraid that Annie might not give mama to me cause I can still have another part if I dont get mama.

I feel like this is the one show that no matter how hard I try, I just cannot cast in my head. Most of the shows are really easy to precast, but not this one. I guess you could argue that this show will be hella good, because even the ensemble will be hella good, but i dunno. I would feel like shit if I didnt get mama, didnt even get a stripper, and just got Ms. Cratchitt or something. I hate to say this, but that probably wont happen. I think that if I dont get mama, I will still have a stripper, but you never know.

I have been working so hard for this goddamn part. I memorized the scenes and the songs and worked on them with 2 of my voice teachers since the day she announced it was gypsy. I prepared myself by buying both of the movies of gypsy and watching them all the time, studying how they did certain things, and trying to work that into my own acting. I am greatful for my mommy, cause she ran lines with me and helped me be the best I could be. Natalie was also really prepared. She surprised me, she was so good. I knew she had talent, but she really proved herself. We all did, and I just wish that there werent that many good people for each part.

I want it to be double cast, just because it gives me a better chance to get mama, but to tell you the truth... If I knew that I had Mama in the bag, I would want her to single cast it. But thats not going to happen cause it wouldnt be fair. So, the best thing for her to do would be to double cast it. Its only fair to everyone, I hope she sees that.

I know it doesnt mean anything, but when we read the scene with mama and louise, there were 4 mamas and 5 louises at the time, and when it came to asking another mama to go, she asked me. And then when Yael came in late, she asked me to read with her too. I felt really honored to read with her. Do you know that feeling when you have someone who is so amazing work with you in a scene, that it makes you amazing too? Yea, thats how it was. If I get mama i would want Yael to be my louise. Although even in the louise case, there are so many people who could do that part. Same with June. So much talent.

I hate that I keep on saying "if i get mama." I feel like I have already told myself that I wont. You know how some people tell themselves that they wont get a part just to make themselves feel better if they dont or if they do? Well its not like that at all, well maybe a little. But mostly, I just think that I will get a stripper to be fair to the other talent that doesnt have a "backup" part.

Okay, end of my rant. I am done. Love you all!!!

09:57 am: I got my license!!!

11:32 pm: i am bored and have realized that i have not updated. although it doesnt matter cause no one ever looks anyways. i am sleeping over at andys... well alexas. yea. hmm. yea. okay. love ya'll!

07:12 pm: i dyed my hair red... mwahahaha

01:36 pm: The Katies' party was so much fun... enough said

12:41 pm: Hey People,

So last night was my birthday party with my SI girls. It was fun. We got Manicures and Pedicures. It was fun. Pretty colors. Woot Woot. And then like half the girls left and Ilana, Karalen, and I went to Hard Rock Cafe. Of course we ran into Maggie, Peter, Mimi, and Joey. We walked down Fisherman's Warf and Pier 39. We looked at cheap, fake and designer shit. Karalen did her Mizvah and gave our leftover food to a homeless guy. Then we went back to the house and met up with the rest of the girls and Andy. Presents and cake were great fun. Then we played Disney Scene it. We fell asleep to THIRTEEN. Best present ever. I love you all


<3 Sarah

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11:24 am: thank you for the surprise party!

06:10 pm: So i am getting confirmed tonight. and i have to read from the torah. thats right, i am an uber jew. and i am proud of it. well... mostly. its gunna be hella boring, but hey... its the end of my jewish school learning stuff. so thats a plus. although there will be like 2 people there tonight, which is embarrassing. oh well... peace.

07:20 pm: I love andy. Yea. I know. Get over it.

01:28 pm: ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!

09:09 pm: I wanna say that my life sucks... but I really doesnt. But thats kinda how i feel. Hmmm... well my birthday is in two days (thursday). I am way way excited!

Ok... that is all.

I love all of you.

12:30 am: So I am pretty much okay with the casting.

Cat: Good! They both deserve it.
Horton: what i expected.
Gertrude: Kaitlyn will be amazing, wish it was double cast.
Mayzie: perfect
Jojo: going to be great
Bird girls: i guess i wish that it was only 3 people, and not having an offnight person. it makes things a lot more complicated. i dunno... especially since miquela is a soprano 1 and kathryn is an alto. i guess miquela/kathryn will be alto, alex will be a second, and i will be the top... oh well...

so i am happy. but i guess that it is already set in stone that i dont have a lead, i am a little sad. even though i think bird girls will be fun. i just really want to finally have a part at company. and dont give me that crap of "you're still young" cause in my mind its about talent, not age.

bird girls best be stealing the show. watch out boys and girls.